I just found this. I wrote it the day I decided to finally write my memoir.
I am so afraid of blowing this opportunity.
I am afraid I am too old.
I am afraid I am too tired.
I am afraid I will never finish.
I am afraid I will finish and it will suck.
I am afraid I suck.
I am afraid I will finish and it will be really good.
But no one will know it.
Or everyone will know it and I will get a book deal and then a series deal and I will write for a living and love it.
If that happens I am afraid I will look back on all the wasted years and feel sad at all the time I didn’t write.
I hate this.